So maybe I am an extrovert, and of course I love my job and what I do, but I'm not beyond the possibility of getting peopled-out! I have to admit there are some times when I get tired of reaching out to people.
"She's so demanding", I thought to myself. "It's probably her Indian culture. She's a difficult person. She's wants things when she wants them! Having said that, I couldn't help but remember my shortcoming - I had promised her WEEKS ago that I would print out some hymn lyrics for her to go along with a Christian music CD that I had given her as a gift. She loves music! I remember how frustrated I was at the lady's attitude. And now I was starting to get tired of reaching out to her. It's easy to justify our frustrations..."it's their culture", "it's his personality type", "She have too many issues!", "They think the world revolves around them!", "He's always late", or "They are so impatient with me!" Whatever our excuse is, it is always the other person's fault. They are the ones with the problem - NOT us! The difficult person to reach out to. The difficult person to connect. The difficult person to give Bible studies to. The difficult church member. Lord have mercy on us! But isn't this the truth?
Recently I've been struggling to give unselfishly to others. Without realising it, I had started complaining about other people. But then it hit me...this wasn't just one incident, it was twice...twice that I had been complaining about other people, rather than realising maybe I'm the one with the problem! There was the lady last week in a Bible study group who had difficulty understanding a truth we were studying. And I remember the thought crossing my mind "she's a difficult person to work with, other people I've worked with haven't been this difficult." While there may have been some truth to that statement, in reality I had made a mistake. She hadn't been ready to hear the truth presented, and I hadn't taken control of the situation in a way that would have most likely prevented her difficulties. In that moment I felt the holy spirit speaking to my heart and saying, "Do you think that people are an inconvenience?" In reality, people are an inconvenience! Ministry never can get crammed into our perfect schedule, neither can it revolve around our preferences! Its about them - NOT about me, NOT about us! God doesn't ask us to reach the perfect cookie cutter people, he asks us to reach those who are messy. Those who are inconvenient. Those who are impatient with us. Those who are needy. Those who are different. Those who are difficult.
I believe God leads us into situations in our lives where He shows us our neediness. If there's one thing I'm learning it's to be more unselfish and to put others and their needs first. If there's one area of my character God is working on, it is Him teaching me to be more giving and more flexible. I have to take time to ask myself tough questions, such as, "Am I becoming hardened by the hurts, needs, and lacks of humanity? Am I manifesting the character of Jesus in all I do and say?" Oh how I want to be like Paul when He said, "I am made all things to all men, that I might by all means save some." (1 Corinthians 9:22). Oh how I want to exemplify the life of Jesus who gave His life for me! What about you?
